呵呵

...Joshua

新春快乐

---everything will be fine next year

                            i wish

每当烟花散尽 所留下的 只是无尽的惆怅。。。

人类一生犹如孤帆一瞥 最终消逝无尽的苍茫中

人们所追求的

是什么

散尽铅华

当一切哗众取宠的修饰物消逝之时

所剩下的

是什么。。。

我看到

一切都向着癫狂飞奔。。。

In my restless dreams,I see that town
SilentHill
You promise you'd take me there again someday
But you never did
Well i'am alone there now, in our special place
Waiting for you...
Waiting for you to come to see me ,
But you never do
And so I wait,wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness.
I kown I've done a terrible thing to you,something you ll never forgive me for
I wish I could change that,but i can't
I feel so pathetic and ugly lacing here, waiting for you...
Everyday I scared up at the cracks in the ceiling
and all I can think is how unfair it all is...
The doctor came today,he told me I could go home for a short stay
It's not that I'm getting better
It's just that this may be my last chance...
I think you kown what I mean...
Even so ,I'm glad to be coming home,I've missed you terribly
But I'm afraid james
I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home
when ever you come see me,
I can tell how hard it's on you...
I don't know if you pity me or hate me
or maybe I just digust you...
I'm sorry about that
When I first learned that I was going to die I justdidn't want to accept it
I was so angry all the time and I struck out at everyone I love most,especially you,james...
that's why I understand if you do hate me
But I want you to know this james
I'll always love you
Even though our life together had to end like this,I still wouldn't trade it for the world
We had some wonderful years together
Well this letter had gone on too long so I'll say goodbye
I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone
that means that as you read this,I'm already dead
I can't tell you to remember me but I can't bear for you to forget me
these last few years since I'm ill...I'm so sorry for what I did to you,did to us...
You've given me so much and I haven't be able to return a single thing
that's why I want you to live for yourself now
Do what's best for you james
James.... you made me happy...